Happy Thanksgiving

For the first time that I can ever remember, I am not working this week.
It is fantastic!
I get to be home (or whatever) doing whatever I want and planning dinner all by myself!
It may be the only time I ever get to do this but really it is a gift

We are having a small group on Thursday -- 8 people
for this too I am grateful -- my parents, one sister, and 3 friends.
I am preparing exactly what I want, I have the time to do exactly as I wish
I get to use the china and silver I received at my wedding
can't remember last time that happened!

the house is mine during the day so I get to just do things in my way!
no one correcting me or asking why

BLISS!!!

I'm sorry for others who are not so blessed this year
I am soaking in it because, as I said, this feels like a once in a lifetime chance

In the evenings when he is home, Tom is not taking care of himself
he has the monitor -- but for some reason -- he is not using is properly

last night, I was watching him trying to cut vegetables 
he couldn't hold the knife properly and it was scary to watch
but, you know, sometimes all you can do is watch with breath held

I asked about his "sugar number"  -- our new code word
after fumbling for several minutes he looked at it  and said 40
well, really it couldn't have been 40 because he would have been passed out on the floor
but he sure was low
so I asked him if he was going to have some juice
"ok, in a minute after I finish this"

REALLY?

after you cut your finger off?

I had to leave the room

its so tiring

of course, he finished what he was doing, drank some juice and was just fine
later asking me why I get so upset
he has it all under control   :| 

so today -- alone again --
I am a happy girl

he can take over when he gets home at night
I think by then I'll be upstairs in bed reading my romance novel.
or something......

I wish everyone could have a few days like mine
Happy Thanksgiving everyone!