I'm having a bad day
can you please indulge me?
I write this blog for two reasons
first to get stuff off my chest
but also to help others
really
I want others to benefit from the challenges I had earlier in my life
in the early years of my married life there was no one to help me
i remember being really scared
what was happening?
why?
was I a bad person because I was angry at Tom?
was I a bad person because I was scared?
Do I help you?
do I offer support?
please give me support because
in other parts of my life I'm struggling
and I want to know that here at least
I'm helping one or two people
thanks
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Absolutely. You've really been a blessing and encouragement to me. I'm truly thankful for you and the handful of spouses that I've found here.
ReplyDeleteLove you and everything you write. I know I'm not alone because of you. Thanks!
ReplyDeleteTomswife,
ReplyDeleteI am so sorry to hear about all your heartaches and struggles recently. I just started reading your Blog today! I read quite a few entries and I want you to know that I am inspired and comforted by your story.
Up until literally and hour ago I thought I was alone in this struggle until I "googled", "spouses with diabetes". I am 27 years old engaged (for 3 years because he won't marry me) to a 41 year old Type2 Diabetic. Along with that he has blood clots, IBS, Gout, high blood pressure... the list goes on.
Your statement at the top of your Blog made me start hysterically crying. Thats exactly how I feel! I cry every day wondering what else I can do to aid in his diseases? How do I make him care more about his health? Why is he ALWAYS angry and emotional? It's so hard, and frustrating! I want you to know I am thankful for your Blog! You are helping ME! :)
Keep writing and keep your head up!
xx-Ashleigh
Oh my gosh...your blog helps more than you will ever know....I want to get my keys and LEAVE....just move some where and hide...but know I can't...I must stay and take care of hubby whether he wants it or not...somedays I just want a real hug...someone to think of me first...God forgive me but when I read Ashleigh's comment, I think her fiancé is being kind not to tie her to this life.... I can't say if I'd known 40 years ago what I know now that things would be the same...the pain of this disease is somedays more than I can take...just being here to check if DH is still breathing..,going through the horrible abusive lows.
ReplyDeleteBut on the other hand I have two grown kids I can't saddle them with this life.
Pls. forgive me for Ashleigh...it's only my opinion...but somedays...like today, I just want it to be over...however blogs like Tom's wife are a God send to me! They understand...don't judge...but suggest and encourage...and for that a thanks seems inadequate...but thanks anyway...good nite to all! TX DW