I am unbearably sad
my dad told my mom this morning that he wants to die
he can't stand the pain anymore
This is my dad -- my best friend in the world
yeah, I know
my dad
but still
He has been sick for a long time
and yet...
I can't imagine my world without him
the end may not be today or even this weekend
(he went back into the hospital today)
but it will be soon
I will have to figure out how to deal with it
of course I will
but the pain in my heart is unbelieveable
and yes, I know others have been here
DW just lost her mom -- I'm guessing its similar
if you love someone, hug them today
you don't know what tomorrow will bring
I'm holding Tom tight tonight
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It is the hardest thing on earth to lose a parent. But each day seems to be getting a little better. It just takes time. I'm fortunate that I had 8 weeks with mom being so sick, yet having time to grieve her loss before it happened. I think that helped as well. Many many goodbyes, many times of telling her how much I loved her and she told me the same. Hours of sitting there, holding her hand. What more could I ask for?
ReplyDeleteYou will make it...just take it one step at a time and don't force yourself to do anything you don't want to do. Give yourself whatever time you need to heal when he passes. Many hugs to you, my good friend.
It's hard for any "little girl" to lose her daddy...but if he's ready...I would hold him, cry, tell him exactly how you feel and let him know it's ok...I did 18 years ago....and I wasn't ready but knew it was best for him and know that you will be together again...I see him in the bright stars of night or a full moon and remember how I loved all our special times togethet...all I can say is that he will always be with you in your heart.....prayers to you and your family....TX DW
ReplyDeleteThank you, my friends.
ReplyDeleteyes, it is good to have time to say goodbye
and yet so difficult!
One day at a time, yes???