Phony High?

Yes, I'm at a minute in life where I'm feeling happy
it doesn't happen often so I have to take the moments when they come
like dh, I call it denial
I know the "other shoe is about to drop"
but I choose to ignore it for the minute

this week, for some reason, I am taking the work-stuff differently
its about "them" not about "me"
it will probably only last for a short time but I'll take it

sometimes it feels like I am a very selfish person
and then again I know that it depends on where one looks
on this, my blog, there is a lot of "i" focus
but Tom is the center of my world
without him, I can't imagine ...
well, you know

I rail against him, but its really my anger against his disease
as much as anything else
sometimes he doesn't do a good job
and sometimes he is mean to me
but sometimes I'm mean to him

Life can be really hard
I'm not as smart as I want to be
but I try to find the best way that I can
and I hope that each of us can do the same

it is my wish that each person who feels a little of this
would write just a few words
to share their own feelings
its difficult
but amazingly
it helps
especially when someone writes back
and I'll do my best
so will your sisters out here

that's it
the title probably isn't right
but that doesn't matter, does it?
if you read this far, send me a comment
even if its just to say yes!
thanks

as always,
sleep well,

tom's wife