Diabetes Wife wrote to me:
At least once a week, I ask myself why I stay. Today was that day. We stay because we love the man we knew when we married. We know it's the diabetes that has changed them. We know it's not who they really are. Yet, when the time comes to leave, each one of us will know. We have to do what is best for us. And there should be no remorse. No one should have to endure the verbal and sometimes physical abuse that happens when a diabetic goes low. No one.
My response: Thank you. I have been miserable all weekend. Tom finally realized I was serious and really listened to me last night. Of course, he says that things will change. but we know that's only until the next time he goes low. Its so exhausting -- but what's the alternative? I really just want to take the path of least resistance right now. Work is SO HARD right now I just can't take on any more "work"
I wish I could get a full night of sleep
maybe then I would feel better?
I hope you get sleep
Tom's Wife
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ReplyDeleteHave you checked into a CGM? Sorry if you've posted about this before. I read your blog as often as I can, but don't recall if you have.
If you're not familiar with it, it's a sensor that checks the BS every 5 minutes or so and sends a signal when it sees the trend going too low or too high. (To the best of my knowlege, that's how it works) We are just in the process of getting one now. He wore the trial one for 3 days and the data was sent to the insurance company. I can't see how they would deny him. He has a history of going low and did go low at least once that I know about during the 3 days.
I have real hope for this gadget. My husband drives home with a BS of 50,40, or 30 because he has lost the ability to detect the lows coming on. He doesn't get abusive - verbally or physically, thank goodness.
I'm not sure if it's available for someone with type 2, but it's worth checking out.
So there's my pitch for the CGM. If you want to know more about it, I'd be happy to give you what I know.
JLM
Beware: anything typed here may be subject to errors because I am visually impaired. I can type by touch, but sometimes my touch is a little off. Other times, my touch is so far off no one can make sense of what I write. However, despite very seriouse vision issues, I know our property so well that I was able with my daughter's assistance to plants flowers this summer. It is a blur now but that is no reason not to mop the floor ro mow the lawn. I ise a [isj mower so I do not cut off any toes though. My worst vision problems are under florescent or metal hallide lights. I need to be in a position to get back to my old job or find a new one that will take me with extreme visual impairment.
ReplyDeleteI can see to read for a few minutes then everything gets very blurry. I think this is a brain injury caused by the drug, and dementia symptoms are a side effect. At one time, I had dementia symptoms. Once I get my sellf position at the computer, I can type by touch and I just close my eyes, abd ibkt ioeb tgen uf U reakkt beed ti see, I am famaliar with this meteringdevice you are writing about on this blog. My blood sugars are actually very stable and predictable. I usually just give myself an injection every two hours and it is only about 1 unit unless I have eaten. If myvision is really out of sorts, I just guess and I am usually pretty acurate on the guess. I can kind of tell by the amount of draw I give the needle. I have to make myself eat. I wasn't eating and the bones in my arms started hurting like crazy so I started eating and the pain went away. I just had the blood sugar troubles at the extreme level when the doctor gave me an drug injection. I am usually at about 140-150 at the end of two hurs and then give mself an injection. With that drug, my bllod sugars were going so crazy that I had my wife set the alarm on her cell phone for every hour. I had to take those shots every single hour for 48 hours then it finally started to normalize, but for about a week, I had to continue giving myself those hourly injections for at least two more weeks. All my whining is because the doctor knew this drug could cause these problems, including kidney failure. My kidneys were on the verge of failing. The doctor said we could put me on a kidney machine and possibly a transplant. I told my wife we are not giving the medical community another dime. I will die first. When my legs swelled up like a balloon, I just walked for long periods and up hill. The helped clear the nitrogen and other waste products out. I know most people put a lot of trust in doctors, but I do not. So I entertain my kids and wife with anti doctor jokes and we all laugh together. Probably the worst part was for my kids and wife
Beware I am visually impaired and you might see some typos. I need a program that will spell check for me and tell me by sound if I have mistyped a word. The Nebraska Commission for the blind have told me that my eye condition maY get even worse as time goes on.
having to take care of me when I was totally blind, and they still do have to care for me at times when my vision gets too blurry, but it is getting somewhat better. New rules thougg, don't leave anything on the floor. I have a big injury on my forehead where I walked straight into a post. I can see to read for just a few minutes before everything goes into a blur.